Yes you, my husband. I can’t begin to explain the depths of my love to you. I know I fail and say hurtful things. I know I’ve let you down, hurt your heart, and spoken out of line. I know my approach is not always the best, but please believe me when I say I will always strive to be a better woman, wife and mother. My deepest desire is first and foremost to express my love on a daily basis that is unspoken. A love that goes beyond words and action, but simply is the basis of who I am and how I act with you. This is my heart’s desire.
I have reached the point in my life of complete contentment. Contentment on a level of having everything I truly need. I have the love of my life to share in every adventure we go on. Good and bad, trial and error, heartache and happiness. I have the best baby boy with big blue eyes who holds my heart so dear. This truly is all I’ve ever wanted and I have it. It’s mine, my childhood dreams come true. My heart it happy. Beyond this I have a blessed life living in suburbia in an upscale, safe and quite neighborhood. I have a beautiful house, car and many other material things that have blessed our lives. These things I am fortunate to have and undeserving. This isn’t the issue though. These material things will never be the basis of my happiness and will never define who I am; Tiffany Joy Cook.
All my childhood I dreamt of the day of being married, having babies, and living happily ever after. I have accomplished my biggest dream of life. 26 years it took me to finally reach the end goal. I’ve made mistakes and plenty of them, I have drove down roads I wish I hadn’t, I had many worldly experiences that I wish I could erase but through these challenging, difficult disappointments, I have also realized not to dwell on them but to become a stronger woman through it all. The innocence I hold now is a pure love for the fact that forgiveness reigns and circumstances don’t define a person. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”Oh, how this is beyond true. But not only do I want to become stronger through trials and tribulations, I want to become a woman who is viewed as blessed no matter her circumstances and will make something positive out of a negative. A woman who loves her Lord and Savior more than anything and whose life reflects that to the best of my ability. I long to be an example to my child and most of all you; strengthen you, encourage and help you through difficult pain in life and the joyous moments as well. This person that I am describing and the job it holds to accomplish this task is not an easy one, but is a road worth traveling.
We chose the hard path initially. Getting pregnant after dating a couple months and then getting married. Seems to be a common approach in our lives. We not only should embrace this factor about ourselves but laugh through the crazy times. Life will continually throw curve balls, how will we choose to dodge them. Shall we hide in a corner and cover ourselves as we get annihilated, jump gracefully through the air and understand it will pass, or shall we take off running in the opposite direction and leave the arena pretending we can escape. I want to stand firm and fight the battle jumping through hoops trying to avoid as much pain as possible while embracing the learning opportunities through each hoop we jump through. I want to look back at the end of my life and feel as though I fought for the things that mattered, not the things that will be left behind. At the end of my life I will stand face to face with God in hopes to hear “well done, my good and faithful servant.” This is my desire. I do not want to hear how I wasted my one shot at life and sought after all the wrong things.
I love you Michael John! You are my joy!
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