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Promotion Time


Wait what? Whose getting promoted? Aren’t you a stay at home mom?

That’s right friends. Here’s the deal, I recently updated you all about my business venture to get my husband and I fully self-employed. I still work with Jamberry Nails but have embarked on a new venture with ItWorks! Global. The more I learn, the more I absolutely LOVE this company.

Here’s what I love. I can work from home or anywhere. The company IS out for the best interest of their distributors. They seek for extreme teamwork, you’re not left to fend for yourlsef (which is amazing), they are a Christian based company, your team literally helps you AND the products give real results. If this isn’t convincing enough, keep reading.

I stumbled across this company while a friend posted about a skincare line that I gravitated towards. I primarily get all my cosmetics and skincare from Sephora. The problem here is they are EXPENSIVE and I don’t see long term results in the products. I spend outrageous amounts of money for all natural skincare that promises to give me results and they don’t. So I try new products every time I go in. When I saw my friend post about our skincare line, I was immediately excited; all natural and cheaper by far. How could I not try it out???

Well friends, that’s where my journey began. Not only did I purchase the products I became a distributor as well. I wanted to become a distributor because I see a company that promotes not just “that crazy wrap” but a whole lot of products that help you gain a healthy lifestyle. We are out for your best interests not just a quick fix lose ten pounds. The “crazy wrap” literally works miracles but that is NOT all the company is about. They have multiple products that promote healthy living from the inside out. They are natural products and they give real results. We have doctors that work specifically with ItWorks that travel around the world to find the best products out there that really do work. I’m a huge advocate for health and wellness and really believe in making the right choices for our lives. This doesn’t mean I didn’t just go eat a handful of gummy bears and thoroughly enjoy them because I did! :) This means that I live by the simple truth “Everything in moderation.”

Some people have the mindset that we are the next best diet out there, the quick fix, the “lose weight and not change your lifestyle” mentality, but we aren’t. We are not a diet company. We are not a quick fix because even though our products give real results you can counteract these results by not desiring change. What I mean by that is this: Say today you decide to eat a blueberry muffin from Starbucks and get a vente white mocha. For lunch you have Burgerville and a large fry. Dinner is homemade tater-tot casserole with ice cream for dessert. After the kiddos are in bed you decide to try the body applicator (wrap) from ItWorks. You take a before picture and 45 minutes later you remove the body wrap. Repeat this for all 4 treatments and snap your last photo. When you do a side by side comparison, your mind gets BLOWN. You see for yourself that this crazy girl really does know what she’s talking about. This is NOT water weight as  you will find in salons. This IS in fact a detox that reduces our swollen fat cells causing them to shrink. Now…didn’t I just say that this isn’t a quick fix? Yes, I did! Here’s why, even though this detox showed you first hand through the photos you took that it really does work, if you continue eating potato chips and not eating a well-balanced diet you will counteract these results. This goes for anything and that is why I live by the rule: everything in moderation. I’m not suggesting you don’t head over to Starbucks and get a white mocha or that you don’t eat Burgerville, I’m a huge fan of both of these places but not on a regular basis.

What I do find is that once you receive these results it does in fact inspire you to want to keep them which in turn is up to you on whether you want to start eating slightly more healthy foods, go for longer walks or even head to the gym. This is up to YOU. The great things is we help promote a healthy lifestyle no matter what you choose, you will see results.

I’m seeking to explain to you a company that has literally made me super ecstatic and fall in love with cheaper products then I previously paid and knowing we are helping other’s do the same. I want to invite all of you to ask me questions, challenge me and see for yourself that you also are falling in love with these products.


My goal has changed through the past few weeks from originally signing up for some awesome products, to now help my hubby pay off student loan debt, house debt and car debt. These are things we want to rid and have a more simple life. I’ve been blessed to stay at home with my little munchkin and by no means did Michael think I would ever embark on this journey but I basically told him I was. No asking! :) I knew this is what I needed to do. I want to help support him and encourage him that while he’s at work all day earning a living for us, I appreciate it. I want to be a contributor in this crazy life that is beyond materialistic and lives outside their budget by helping my husband pay down college debt that literally will take forever. He always tells me, work smarter not harder. I fully agree with this statement and found the drive within myself to live up to that challenge and help him out not just verbally support him. :) I want him to be able to be self employed and work from home, take time off when he wants and travel when we choose. These are my dreams and I can play a huge part in that. The best part is, my hubby literally supports my crazy ambition!

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Or maybe you want to be apart of my 90 day challenge and see for yourself what products you want and what concerns you have diminish.

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Don’t Waste Your Life

What do YOU love? Whats your dreams, passions and what drives you?

My husband and I were talking last night about our future goals and our goals for the year. We were discussing how deeply we both want to be self employed so we can make our own hours, be with the kiddos and pass on memories as a family rather then daddy going to work all the time. I mentioned earlier this week how Cooper has a hard time when Michael is gone all week long. These are things that we CAN change if we want. God has given us the ability to work and be creative. That doesn’t mean we are all meant to sit at a desk to provide for our family. This is not the dream we have.

We know we were created for so much more and now we just have to pursue our dreams and allow the Lord to really work those out in His timing. It’s actually exciting to see what this year will bring and where we will be.


I challenge each of you to know your dreams and passion and to really pursue them as well. If you don’t know what they are, pray about it. God wants us to be used for His glory. What does that look like in YOUR life? Is your story similar to ours, are you wanting to pour into your family and not allow work to take over your life? Are you wanting to minister to those around you? Think through it all and comment below your thoughts, dreams and what you want for your life.

Dream big!

#dontwasteyourlife #cherishthemoment #workfromhome #selfconfidence #seekyourdreams #changeyourheart

Susie NEEDS Our Help!!!!


Susie Churchill is a sweet sister-in-Christ who is 62 and a widow.  She attends Athey Creek Christian Fellowship.  Susie shared with me that she has a hereditary condition that is causing bone loss and infection in her mouth requiring extensive dental work at the price of $14,000.  Susie tried to refinance her home but was denied.  She needs this work done very soon due to the infection.  She also would need multiple teeth removed and would like it done before she returns to work this fall as a teachers assistant/office help.
Susie would never ask for help, so I am asking for her.  If God puts it on your heart to give to her need, whether it is $1 or $100, any contribution will be appreciated greatly.  And of course, please pray for her!
Thank you,
Suzanne Corrie
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Falling Short

Falling Short

Falling short often means humility, embarrassment and failure. But there is so much more to it than that. Falling short is due to human expectations whether it be your own or someone else’s. But the truth lies in our short comings often bring us to Christ and back to keeping our eyes fixed on Him rather than ourselves.

I find myself often contemplating my days end with a negative connotation. Replaying the things I did or did not do with my son. How I treated my husband whether in love or selfishness. Feeling deep guilt of failure when I realized tonight I can’t think on the negative but on how to prepare for the following day. We speak words of life or death all day long whether to friends or family. Our words tear down souls or build them up.

Do you ever have those moments where you act as a fool, not paying attention to something? Letting something slide that typically wouldn’t fly in your household? Becoming more of the “world” than of Christ.

This morning has been a battle in every sense of the word. A spiritual battle that has landed upon our household for the past week. A battle that if I am honest, I do not want to fight. I am worn, exhausted, emotionally and mentally spent. I want to crawl into bed and pray that God just lifts this battle and allows me to move on from here.

Unfortunately we are placed in the battle to fight the fight and not escape. Though escaping often feels easier, it’s harder in the long run. It’s tiring and we often do not learn what we should learn if we fought the battle head strong.

This morning started off on the wrong foot. Everything that could possibly go wrong in the past two hours I’ve been awake, has happened. I partake in Facebook parties and host them for people throughout the states to gain awareness of Jamberry Nails. This is something I enjoy and it allows me to meet people from all over. In doing so, I was realizing several days ago that most the parties I have thrown have been with fellow sisters in Christ. I’ve been thankful as in the midst of this being fun for me, I have been encouraged by them in more ways than one.

To see women all across the states share a deep love of Christ while having an online party has been a beautiful thing to see.

While this morning was the same thing on top of everything going wrong, I am throwing parties left and right. While I completely got distracted from the real meaning and purpose of my life for a moment, I was determined to help make my business more successful. In that very moment, I posted something crud and unworthy of notating. In my defense- though I shouldn’t even defend myself, I did not read the caption in the picture prior to posting. Immediately, I get a personal message politely asking me to remove the photo. I got thoroughly embarrassed and defensive to myself that I would never post something inappropriate. I promptly remove the picture and go back to reread the caption and immediately plagued with “oh my goodness, I can’t believe it. Wow, seriously Tiffany” All these feelings and emotions flood over my soul and bring me to tears. Though I have been crying all morning, this moment brought me right back to a humbled position at the foot of the Cross.

God always allows thing to happen for a reason. Nothing falls through the hands of Christ without His approval. My embarrassment brought me back to a place of realizing my business will not be successful on my own. My goal is to have fun and be a Light to those around me. God quickly reminded me that my
business” should not be my focus right now. My focus must remain my family.

While sitting here in my chair, starring at the bright light from the computer I realized God brought this woman in my life at that very moment to encourage me. I needed encouragement. that moment this morning was not for me to encourage others but to accept encouragement from a woman who I’ve never met but shares the same love of Christ with me. And that’s all that matters. Our eternal position is what draws her and I together and what a beautiful scene that is when two people who do not know one another can speak words of encouragement that comes from our Lord and Savior. Amazing!

Here’s the truth in this situation. God is faithful no matter what we are involved in. If we choose to let Christ reign in our lives, we will be glorifying Him in the littlest of things. My business I have been doing as an independent consultant for Jamberry Nails has been really fun for me but even in work, God must be glorified. My perspective was on myself and my circumstances this morning and God humbly brought me back to a place of humility and also used this woman to encourage me. God knew exactly what I needed this morning. We all need to have a teachable heart and allow the Lord to work in ways we could never predict.


God is faithful in bringing the right people in the right time. People I never would have expected I consider a dear friend.

This little boy also brings me back to reality. His innocence, his view of the world is so tiny and naive that I long to embrace the spirit of living each day for the simplest things. Nothing else matters to a two year old. He’s a wonderful reminder to let the little things go and keep my eyes on Christ!

Thank you Jesus!

Guitarfish Music

Guitarfish Music

“Hey diddle diddle, the cat and the fiddle, the cow jumped over the moon. The little dog laughed to see such sport and the dish ran away with the spoon, ya, the dish ran away with the spoon.”


When I was 7 years old I started playing the piano and taking lessons from my Aunt Preta. She was an incredible pianist and while she taught me a lot about piano in those eleven years, I decided to quit once I left for college. I was ignorant and truly believed I would never regret this move— boy was I wrong. Here I am 11 years later and have a two year old who loves dancing, singing and instruments. I decided I wanted to start him at a young age and get him deeply acquainted with music so that he can learn to appreciate how our society thrives off this talent.

Imagine a world without music and instruments. Have you ever thought about that? Maybe you aren’t musically talented but that does not mean you do not listen to music of one genre or another. Music is what our culture thrives on. A suspense movie has that eerie feeling hiding in the black scenes of the night telling you something horrific is about to happen. That music is what provides this deep intensity that tramples through your veins. Or maybe a sporting event during football season; the bands plays wildly banging on their drums in utter excitement that their team just scored a touchdown. The crowd jumps to their feet with sheer joy and the trumpets play. This is a scene we all long for but what catches these moments and creates a lasting memory is the music. Or, maybe you enjoy dancing. Whether it be swing, tango, salsa or hip-hop. How could you dance without music? Music sets the scene of life.

Recently, I had the pleasure of taking some private classes at a local music store called Guitarfish. This store was incredible! The people were amazingly friendly and wanted to get to know me and what it was that they could help me with. They weren’t simply doing their job pushing you to purchase an item or lessons so they could earn their commission for the day, by no means, and the teachers are not independent contractors like most other studios. They are staff members of Guitarfish who have a lot of experience giving music lessons and working with students of all ages. And the best part of all of this, every week I stepped into this store, I could see that each employee had a deep desire to fulfill what they were called to do; bring music to their store and teach how to fulfill that passion. There was a love and passion that filled the store with a giant friendly face and this is what I call a true family owned business. Fulfilling a passion and providing a well-educated environment for toddlers-adults to gain the knowledge they need to fulfill their dream in music. The appearance of the store and atmosphere they provide for families is what sets them apart from other music stores.

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If I were to be completely honest here, I would probably never enter a music store because of my fear that I would not fit in with most studios. My stereotype is that a music store is filled with “tatted up rocker dudes” that are still stuck in the 60’s rocking their long hair. Please take no offense to this but if you know me and my “girly” disposition, this wouldn’t be a place for me. I would probably start talking about our hairstylists rather than music. ;)


With that in mind, I was pleasantly surprised that Guitarfish had an open layout to their store and was there to help me with my specific needs/wants and immediately provide a welcoming environment. If Apple had a music store, Guitarfish would be their scene.

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Apart from their inviting store, they have multiple classes for kids of all ages. I had the opportunity to get myself and Cooper involved with their young kids’ class called Music Together. And while they have classes for elementary age through high school, I partook in my little mans music class getting him acquainted with the beginning facets of music and how kids learn. I was beyond impressed with the knowledge and education behind this class. I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Though it was for young kids, I learned multiple new concepts every time we went. The involvement, rhythm and repetition was unspeakable.

I must say from my personal experience, I was taken aback by the research, involvement and desire to teach my son how to begin learning songs and playing instruments. It is called Music Together but I kept calling it “mommy and me” or a “daddy and me” class because you learn just as much as the kids. There were dads, moms and grandmas all dancing and singing in this early childhood music class. It was very fun!

I never knew that music stores offered classes like this and I do not think most do. Guitarfish is very family oriented and reaches out to fulfill every dynamic possible in the realm of music. Whether it be with instruments or voice lessons- there’s something for everyone at Guitarfish.


For those of you who have a passion for singing, playing the piano, rocking out on a guitar or wanting to do a mommy and me class, Guitarfish is the place for you! This researched based studio will blow your mind and will be worth the experience. They have great value to their lessons and financially fit everyone’s budget. They have a special right now through the month of December to receive $20 off your first month if you sign up before December 31st and mention that I, Tiffany from Delightfully Doable referred you.

Visit Guitarfish at either Hillsboro, Tigard and coming soon to Clackamas.

Measure 92 And The Right To Know

I believe 100% that measure 92 in Oregon was a scam. The right to know what’s in our food was the most expensive measure yet.

A little frustration comes out while being a mom who cares about what she feeds her family. Measure 92 was all about the right to know what is hidden within our food. Our foolish state voted against this….. or did they?

I begin to wonder how much is really based off the public vote verses a political scam. I believe we have our “freedom” to vote but ultimately certain measures and laws are truly left up to congress. I do not believe we have full control with voting and honestly believe this is where politics comes in to play.

“We have a right to know important information about the food we eat and feed our families – such as sugar and sodium levels, whether flavors are natural or artificial, and if fish is wild or farm-raised. We should also have the right to choose whether we want to buy and eat genetically modified (GMO) food, just like 64 other countries already do. Labeling GMO foods would assist shoppers who are concerned about the potential effects of increased pesticides and herbicides to make informed purchasing decisions at the store.”

Tell me, why would people not want to know what’s in their food to the point of commissioning against it? I do not get this and think it’s a huge political scam. I truly believe that this measure was political based and not based off the public vote.

If you read this article, you will see that the argument against farmers spending millions of dollars to adhere to this law is foolish.

This is my personal opinion but I strongly believe we have the freedom to vote but ultimately our votes wont count against a dilemma that would hinder any further money spent upon something we should “know” about. I believe our votes only count to a certain extent and are politically monitored.

This is a very frustrating topic and is only an Oregon based decision in regards to measure 92, but I’ve seen this even with presidency and truly wonder sometimes if our congress and presidents have truly been 100% based off the public. I don’t believe so….

This is simply food for thought and getting a bit of my frustration out when it comes to freedom of speech and freedom to “know.” There are limits even within our own country.


Pumpkin Patch

Pumpkin Patch

Pumpkin patch? You may ask why I am bringing up pumpkins after Halloween is over and we are on to the next big holiday. Well my friends, my life has been utter chaos for the past month that I will be quite frank with you: I haven’t had the time.

Life has passed me by with a roller coaster ride that I jumped onto and didn’t realize I was participating in. I skated through on roller coaster to the next and my head was spinning so rapidly I couldn’t slow down to see which direction was up. Finally my world has stopped spinning….haha okay that’s not true at all. I have come to realize my world will forever spin and I will jump from one roller coaster ride to the next without choice. The only choice in the matter is my attitude. So with that said, I am currently jumping ship from one to the next and right now I have a moment to spend reliving the pumpkin patch that came and went before I even blinked an eye.

We journeyed to Sauvie’s Island for our third year in a row and drug alone a friend who works with Michael. We encountered a field of rotting pumpkins, fresh corn on the cob, tractor rides, corn maze and every food cart you can imagine. We had a lot of fun touring our own Disneyland right here in Portland.


Cooper was beyond fixated on the tractor rides that nothing, I repeat nothing else mattered. Pumpkins became a lower class citizen that was not worth Cooper’s time. It was unbelievable.


That’s right, your eyes serve you correctly. He is holding a GREEN pumpkin while starring down the tractor.


And you are right again….everyone is looking at the camera except Cooper. He is still fixated on the tractor pulling us along.


I guess when you are the only girl in a group of “boys” you will find that your sense of fashion becomes meaningless with men. There was a long debate before we even go to the pumpkin patch about whether I should wear my nice boots or tennis shoes. I was fighting a loosing battle with these men. They go practical without even hearing what my justification was.

Here’s what happened. I had my nice brown boots that matched my outfit perfectly. I also brought along my “junk” tennis shoes in case it was rainy and muddy. The problem lied within the color of my shoes. They are gray and purple and clashed with my outfit 110%. I think you get where this is going… there is no need to fight a loosing battle, I simply ignored them once I realized I was receiving no help in this area and opted for my boots. Once this decision was made, boy was there comments to be had about how muddy they would become. I fought myself to the grave on this stating I wouldn’t walk where I shouldn’t and that it was all going to be just fine….

Here’s my clean boots


And here I am traipsing around the field still in my boots.

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Covered in straw.


A little remnants still remains…


And back to the tractor for our fifteenth ride. Well maybe not quite, but I did take him around and around while the boys went and toured the corn maze.


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Dreaming of being a farmer one day?


The forgotten pumpkins!


And here ya have it….my boots got splattered but not destroyed!

Style trumped boys!



And most importantly, we had some amazing Bratwursts that are always a big hit in our family!!! Mmmm so delicious.


A little Cook family pumpkin patchin’

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Happy Birthday To Me

My birthday was this past weekend it was fabulous. Before I get into it, let me start by saying it was a very good birthday full of yummy food, date night and family breakfast.

BUT— lets pull the reigns on the horse for a minute and begin by stating how wonderful my birthday was last year. Last year we were in the Bahamas and Orlando for 14 days and it just happened to fall on my birthday! Okay, I may have planned it that way! :) Needless to say, it was a fabulous birthday and though this years was amazing, nothing beats a great Bahamian vacation.

IMG_3556Michael and I enjoying our wonderful travels. My husband is a must travel guy. What this means is this, he is in desperate need of a new vacation every year AND he is a great trip planner; always finding deals and steals making our trips affordable. 

Just looking at this picture makes me realize how beautiful our world is and how small we are in comparison. We have such beauty at our fingertips. Praise God for beauty as it makes life more relaxing.


It was paradise.

We even traveled with the little munchkin and he did AWESOME!!! He is the worlds best traveler.

Okay, enough reminiscing.

This year we went to coffee and pastries with Cooper since later that night we would be going on date night to dinner and a movie. We had yummy pastries at St Honore Bakery and fun time walking around the last Farmer’s Market for the year.




Later that night, we enjoyed date night with dinner and a movie. The concept is almost too simple but so worth it to me. I’m a simply gal and enjoy the little things.

Having a HOT dinner, without kids and full of good company and good food. A movie that’s entertaining, not on our couch and again, without my sweet little baby, though I love him, I enjoy a little time to myself and rarely get it. This is a wonderful way to get away!

I enjoyed myself a good 12 ounce Rib Eye and crab cakes.

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For dessert we had the original New York Cheesecake! Mmmm mmm mm it was delish!

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And the movie we saw was The Judge. It was so worth it and had a couple tears shed but for the most part it was a really good movie.

Time well spent as a husband and wife on my birthday.

Happy birthday to me and it really was! Nothing beats family time!

Thank you hubby for a wonderful birthday and thank you Cooper for being my son! :)

Tired of Life

Tired of Life

Exhaustion, fatigue, lazy, tired, pj’s, sleep, sweatpants, bed, pillow, blanket, backache, headache, achy and feeling sick all the time.

This is how I have felt for the past two months. I’m sick of complaining about it but most of all I’m sick of not feeling good. It is beyond discouraging. I cannot figure out how to conquer the way my body feels right now. I’ve tried working out, I’ve tried drinking coffee all day long. I’ve tried getting more sleep. I’ve had less sleep. NOTHING has worked. My body literally is worn out.

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Realizing this morning that life is utterly draining and everything is meaningless–to a point. Christ created us for so much more and lately I’ve really been struck with the fact that I long for heaven. I long for heaven in a way I’ve never longed for before. We love life so much and hold so tightly to the exciting things we get to experience while here in our temporary home. We hesitate to say we are ready for heaven, but why is that? Everything we enjoy in this life will be in heaven but ten times more unimaginable than we can even dream up. We tend to portray heaven as a last resort when it should be our first priority. Heaven will be more fun than anything we could do on this earth. The beautiful scenery, waterfalls, blue beach water, sandy beaches, beautiful sunsets will all be that much more beautiful in heaven. Plus, I believe there will be more to see than what we see here on earth.

And to be completely honest, women love fashion and I will hold to it that these things we enjoy, we will also get to enjoy in heaven but will probably be piddly compared to what we believe about fashion these days. Our priorities will change completely but it’s not wrong to hope for certain things in heaven. God created pleasure and godly pleasure will not disappear. Our minds can only fathom what lies ahead. So why not take the plunge, why not yearn for heaven unlike anything we have ever yearned for. No tears, check! No heartache, check! No cancer or illness, double check!

If we learn to long for heaven, we will learn to live for heaven. What I mean is this. We will begin to make our days count. Our time spent with the kids will become more meaningful. Our date nights will be better spent communicating about things that matter rather then fighting over parenting our children. We will learn to live for heaven if we choose to long for heaven.

I look at my son in the midst of the trials of life and realize how this innocent boy is directly effected by what his parents endure. Our kids have no choice to avoid our conflict, irritation, outbreaks or sleepless nights. Our attitudes result in our response to our children. They learn by what we do, not what we say.

It makes me sick that our hardships in life influence our children on such a direct level. Resulting in an attitude change either in insecurity, emotional hardship, tantrums or for older kids, the silent treatment. Their lack of understanding results in them trying to pick up the pieces in their own way, while trying to make sense of something that was normal the day before, or maybe an hour ago. Their world gets turned upside down while we wish it didn’t touch their lives. Like it or not our attitude transfers to them. Our circumstances directly effect our children. This is the price we pay by living in a fallen world.

So, are your kids yearning for heaven? Are they talking about Christ and living a life of fullness? Probably not and you may even think I’m crazy for posing such a question. But think about it, isn’t that our purpose here on earth? If you believe this, than why wouldn’t you teach this to your children? Everything that has breath, shall praise the Lord. There’s no age limits and restrictions for making our life count for God and Him alone!


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We need to learn to keep perspective.  We need to ask God to use us on a daily basis not only with friends and activities, but within our own home. We need to remember what this life is all about when we get caught searching for something more; something more fulfilling than the mundane of life. Though your children are simply being kids, remember that they learn by watching YOU.

So lets take it back to the basics. Life is tiring, busy, uneventful, too eventful, routine and unpredictable. When these feelings start to set in, I have to remind myself why I am a mom, wife, friend and daughter. God has a great purpose here for me and I need to be willing to take on that task. I must not let my life pass by and have no purpose or goals. Though this world is dark, scary, painful and full of fear and sickness, God will bring redemption and manifest Himself in the darkest holes of life, the holes we think no light can enter. That’s right where God is. Do you see Him? Do you feel Him? Probably not, but He gives you that strength to take your next breath and remind you that this is OUR TEMPORARY HOME. We must not feel comfortable, embrace each day and keep your face to the sky asking for God’s glory to shine on you and give you the strength you need for that very moment.

We can only see a glimpse into the bigger picture. Don’t let your broken view be skewed by the world around you.

Moment of Truth: What would it look like if you started longing for heaven and the riches of Gods glory each moment of every day while you still live in your temporary home? What would you change in your daily routine to keep Christ the fulfillment of your day?

Faith is remembering that in the kingdom of God everything is based on promise and not feeling. Rejecting the feeling of panic when things seem out of control. 

~Pamela Reeve

A Cloud Of Insecurity

A cloud of insecurity raining over my head calling me Eeyore from Winning The Pooh. Head hung low, shaking my head from side to side trying to escape what this cloud is dropping upon me.

Is life hard, kind of, but not where it was the past three years. Or maybe that’s it…maybe that’s where it all comes from. These past three years of heavy downpour, torrential downpour finally gaining suns first bright beams. A flower bud popping through the surface as if the rain has finally let up. The clouds stay low from the evening dew but still the sun shines through.


I had to post this picture as it depicts really well the gloomy rain cloud with sun shining all around.

These past 26 days have been a miracle. Truly a miracle. This has been my long awaited miracle for our family but why am I struggling to shake the weight from my shoulders? Why can’t I seem to pull myself from the covers in the morning that rest upon me allowing me to escape for a few hours. The sound of pessimism begins to fill my mind with things that do-not-matter.

I’ve prayed, fasted, yearned, pleaded and cried out to God on my face many times and God finally looked down upon me and showed His glory; He choose to lift my rain cloud and bless my family eternally. Though this miracle has eternal ramifications, our worldly hope and despair still press upon us leaving me feeling conquered but with Hope. Let me say that again, the hope of God with the weight of the worldly sin still pressed strongly upon me. God is present though we live in a sinful world. God doesn’t necessarily take circumstances away but shines through the circumstances producing a humble heart ready to glorify God no matter the pain. We long for God the most, in the midst of our “shattered dreams.”

Doubt. Fear. Insecurity. Rage. Pride. Anxiety. These all still reign in my head. How do I release the struggle of my flesh when I finally received this long awaited miracle after three long years of seeking God’s face?  I’m beginning to understand, though 26 days later, that this rain cloud following me around is a rain cloud of repair. Repairing my soul, my trust and my hope. Putting the pieces back together of insecurity and doubt. Forcing me to go that extra step saying “God, I still trust You. Though my three years of misery are coming to an end, I will still trust in the next three years ahead!” These are the new giants in my life, I need to accept them for they will make me stronger still.

I’ve prayed only a few times in life that the Lord do whatever it takes to bring my long awaited miracle. The fear and dread of praying that also plagued me. “Do you know what you could be asking for?” “Do you know what Job went through?” “Do you really want to release that question and battle the consequences? Boy you think you got it bad now, well that prayer will make it get 10x’s worse.” These are question I had to face when I finally got to the end of myself pleading with the Lord. Fine, take it all as long as you fulfill Your promise.

I will be honest, I was scared to death but more scared to not pray it. At that particular point in my life, I knew I had no option but to pray this prayer and earnestly await the response. Was the response easy, by no means, but was God glorified through it, absolutely. What Satan intends for evil, God turns around and turns to good. God be glorified!

The battle raged and is still raging, though I feel the presence of not only the Holy Spirit but the Angels surrounding my family with their swords fighting the unseen battle. I feel it and can truly sense the deep dark battle fighting for my life. I know it’s there and it is a continual reminder that God is faithful! God is who He says He is. Though my life may pass me by, I cling to the Father up above as that is the only thing that satisfies and fulfills my soul. Nothing else matters!

My husband and I have both come to the end result that nothing matters. Say it with me “nothing matters.” What a release from bondage and security to truly believe nothing else matters. The King of the universe has conquered evil and reigns on high. Amen. My rain cloud is simply that, a rain cloud. It wont last forever, it sees sunny days and gloomy days and both are okay. God is growing me in the midst of what I call life. Life is anything and everything of what I ever had pictured the past 28 years of my life and I am thankful. Though it may be utterly painful at times, those are the times I see God move and bring me closer to Him.

These next 26 days will be an adventure. I use that word because past circumstances do not simply disappear. They can diminish and eventually the fire will be put out, but through knowing Christ and experiencing our shattered dreams that bring us closer to Him, we still have to go through the trenches while we live in this sinful world. Putting the pieces back together as when Humpty Dumpty fell to the ground and shattered to a million pieces. Who is the one that could perfectly heal Humpty? Christ. And that is right where we need to be; a malleable heart seeking the face of God.

When we begin to scratch the surface of who God is even in the midst of our shattered dreams, we can hold our rain cloud high to the sky and know God is there with us and wants the best for us. We can learn more about ourselves and more about who Christ has made us to be in Him.

I love my family, love my friends, long for fellowship, long to know Christ more and to share Him with the world on a very honest level. But most of all, most of all, I yearn for heaven. I never yearned for heaven as I do now. Not in a way that I’m hating life and suicidal, but in a way that I hate the evil of this world and want to share Christ with everyone and head to heaven holding hands with my family and enter into the real world. The world without pain, tears and sorrow. The world I can share peacefully with my family and truly know and understand what it means to experience unconditional love. A love so pure that even with my own family I have the tiniest glimpse in comparison to heaven. I can’t fathom a love so pure. Having a family is the closest I can get to feeling this accomplishment on this side of heaven.

So friends, my shattered dreams may appear shattered but in all reality they are perfection. God’s perfection. He turns ashes into beauty, literally beauty and I am blessed. Things I never thought could happen in a million years literally has already happened in my 26 days of a miracle. Praise God for His Son and praise God for His faithfulness.